Hi Blog!! I am in Guatemala! For this blog I wanted to share a testimony from training camp. Below is an entry from the notes in my phone!
Today in worship the same group that led at my training camp for South Africa last summer led. They sang “fight for your fame” again and it was the first time I had heard it since then. Going in to worship I felt the Lord tell me that he was going to break some chains tonight. I proceeded to worship. As they started singing a different song “did you know Jericho, it was taken with a shout” I started to have several realizations. Some of the lies that I had been believing were broken- truth had come to the surface finally. I have been struggling with un-forgiveness for 3 years. Before arriving to training camp I ordered a prophetic key from “Keys for the Journey”. When the word on my key was “forgiven” I was angry. I felt that I had walked through my brokenness enough. I was ready to move on. I wanted to finally be able to use my experience to help other people through the same kind of pain I had experienced. Shortly after that we had a session on forgiveness. I had been seeing this spiritual wall and I was having a hard time breaking it down. As Bill talked about forgiveness it became apparent that forgiveness played a big part in that wall. I decided to ignore that. I became so frustrated each time because I had felt like everyone around me was having all these cool encounters and I just wasn’t feeling it. I vocalized to several people that I needed to forgive the people that hurt me SO THAT i could forgive myself. During worship the lord totally wrecked that thought. He said you’ve already been forgiven through the cross SO THAT you could forgive those who hurt you. Wow. Once again so simple yet it just finally clicked. Those chains DROPPED OFF. I’ve been telling myself that the process of healing will last a lifetime— I haven’t been believing that the Lord will bring this situation to full restoration in my heart. Those lies are gone. I believe restoration is coming because my God is that powerful. That mighty. That merciful.
Throughout training camp we had paper bags with our names on it so that our squad-mates could write encouragements for us and put them inside. The day after I wrote this entry in my notes I checked my bag and someone had put in another key necklace and the word on it was “FREE”. I felt so seen by the Lord and I am thrilled to get to enter my first month of ministry with forgiveness and freedom in my heart.
YEAH YEAH. he is FAITHFUL to wholly heal and restore!!! and he’s not afraid of taking time with your heart. further up and further in. cheering you on, girl!!
Lexy that’s AWESOME! Forgiveness (especially of ourselves) is a difficult thing to give, but I’m so thankful that God put that pain and unforgiveness in front of you so he could take it away! Hearing about your journey is a blessing, and I know God’s gonna bless your ministry in Guatemala!
Forgiven and Free! What precious gifts to you!
This is a beautiful testimony Lexy! I’m so glad that it clicked. It’s true that God’s timing is perfect and sometimes we are just waiting for that click to happen at the right time! Glad you are feeling lighter and forgiven and open to forgive. What a blessing!
FORGIVENESS and FREE keys!
What an awesome book title for your personal story and many many others. How intentional and exacting is God too have gently but persistently walked you through more thoroughness of hard work than you even expected. En el nombre de Jesus !!
What a great blog piece so encouraging Lexy, keep it up mi hermana
“ I’ve been telling myself that the process of healing will last a lifetime— I haven’t been believing that the Lord will bring this situation to full restoration in my heart. Those lies are gone. I believe restoration is coming because my God is that powerful. That mighty. That merciful.”
Wow wow wow! Thank you for sharing this Lexy 🙂