Hey y’all!!! In the past three days I have adopted “y’all” into my everyday vocabulary (you can thank my beautiful southern teammates for that one). God really blessed me with an amazing team. The intentionality and grace that each one of them hold is truly indescribable.
Going into training camp I did not expect to struggle with feelings of doubt and fear of not being qualified. These feelings were so unexpected that it was a little bit rough the first day. I was having a hard time reminding myself that these things were not true. God has reminded me time and time again that I am exactly where I am supposed to be.
The first night of worship i was definitely put more at peace. I often feel the most connected to God during worship. The next day during worship it was taken a step further. As I was standing in a room full of people with a passion to serve the Lord, I heard the words “you are my daughter” in my head. It was so healing because those words were followed with “you are loved” and “you are worthy”.
it is so amazing to me that the Lord is always so faithful. As I write this blog on my plane to Amsterdam I truly feel so thankful to have a relationship with Christ. I truly do not know how I would live with any purpose without a relationship with Christ.
Before I close out this blog I wanted to share a story that happened on the plane from Atlanta to Boston today. I will admit that when I woke up this morning I did not have the most positive attitude. I was excited to begin our travels but also running on two and a half hours of sleep. I felt very easily irritable and so I just said a quick prayer asking the lord to help me with my negative attitude.
Once we got on the plane I ended up sitting next to the nicest lady. We talked throughout a good chunk of the flight and it made things go by so much faster. But in one of the moments of silence I was sitting there listening to my music and I just got this overwhelming feeling in my chest and I heard “there is someone on this plane that you need to pray for”. Initially I thought “right now? Really God” and the feeling would not go away so I turned my music off and closed my eyes and just kind of asked “okay God, what is it” and then immediately a name popped into my head. As soon as I got the name I prayed for this woman whoever she might have been and as soon as I was done praying the name was gone. I tried so hard to remember what the name was but it was like God just needed to use me in that very moment.
This switched my mood so fast and I was immediately so happy and excited for what South Africa will bring. My prayer from here on out is that God will use me in any way possible. Especially in ways that are out of my comfort zone! Wow.. praise Jesus for the changes that have been made in my heary in these past couple of days!! y’all Jesus really loves you SO much, it is Crazy!!!!
Until next blog,
Lex<3
